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'Thank~You For Visiting Our Samuel~Jack'
This is something I never in my worst nightmare expected to be doing ~ again! Compiling another Memorial Website in Memory of another of our precious little babies... I remember working & writing on our angel Jack's site last year, (and it feels like yesterday!) and thinking then that I should not have been doing that! Writing website Memorials in your 'Children's Memory' is not the way it should be, and here I am again, doing exactly the same thing, 15 months later... It has been such a short time since we gave 'birth to' and 'lost' our second precious little baby... The date today is the 25th March 2002. It was only 27 days ago that 'Samuel~Jack' was born and left for Heaven... It seems only like yesterday that we gave birth to and lost our first angel, 'Jack', and now we sit here grieving over the loss of another of our babies... We have now been advised that we have a 'genetic, recessive' condition, known as 'ARPKD'... Although we knew our 'angel Jack' had the disease, it was thought at that time to be a 'one off', a 'fluke' of nature as they call it, but devastatingly, through having another little baby with exactly the same syndrome, it is now classed as 'genetic'... For every pregnancy from now on, there is a 1 in 4 chance of this tragic disease occurring again... Those 'odds' are frightening...
I am not sure when the 'understanding' will come of this cruel, heartless world, that takes our babies away from us? I truly do not think 'understanding' will ever come... How can there be any comfort from a world that is so cruel to us as parents, as grandparents and to all people who have shared in the joy of a pregnancy, a birth and a new precious little baby, and then for that little baby to be taken away? The only 'comfort' we will ever find on this earth is knowing that both our precious little baby boys are now 'both together in Heaven'... They will comfort each other and keep each other safe until the time comes for ourselves to be with them again... Knowing this is the only way that we can cope with everyday life from now on ~ without our babies here...
I cannot begin to express the sadness and pain we are going through again... It is just indescribable... Words cannot express the 'pain' in our hearts and the 'ache' in our arms to just 'hold' and have our babies back again... Is that really too much to ask in this world! We have Jack & Samuels 'empty' Moses Baskets laid side by side in our bedroom... We should be hearing the giggles, the cries and the calling of our babies... But all we hear is 'silence'... 'That Silence ~ is Deafening'
Well, I sincerely hope that through our 'Samuel~Jack's' Website Memorial, that this may have been of some comfort to some people who have ever had to face this most traumatic experience in their life... Andrew and I used to always say to each other:~ "This always happens to someone else" ~ "you see it on the news" ~ "you read it in the papers" ~ "IT DOESN'T HAPPEN TO ME" !! Just how wrong can you be... Some things in life you are just not prepared for ~ and when things like this happen ~ it completely changes your outlook ~ especially when it happens, TWICE!
So... Thank you for being here and for spending some time with our angel Samuel~Jack... Feel free to email on the first page or on the link below. If I can help anyone going through a similar heartbreaking situation, then I will try... To sign our Jack and Samuels Guestbook, you will need to go back to the 'Home Page' where the links are sited...
With Lots of Love Justine x Andrew x Sophie x Ben x Angel Jack x & Angel Samuel x
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