Song playing is:~  I Will Always Love You...

'OUR LAST NIGHT'

**This page is dedicated to 'Our Last Night' with our most treasured Angel**

It was the early hours of Tuesday 5th December 2000, around 1.30am, when I suddenly realised that in the coming few hours, we wouldn't be able to hold our baby in our arms again...

We had bought Jack home yesterday afternoon and laid him in his Moses Basket upstairs in our bedroom.   We were with him all the time...  Every moment was precious...

Throughout the early evening our Midwives visited, our Vicar came, my dad was with us till late that night and Andrew's mum was spending as much time as possible with her little Angel grandson as she could...  We were going to be losing our precious son from our sight soon, my dad and Andrew's mum were going to be losing their treasured grandson too...

When everyone had left, I laid with Jack in my arms on our bed...  I held him close to my breast, as any mother would, yet I was 'sobbing' whereas most mothers are 'joyful'...

"Why did my baby have to go away" ~ I kept saying, but it fell on deaf ears ~ no-one could answer which hurt even more...

I held Jack all night, loving him and cradling him in my arms, crying for him, crying for us, crying for our family...  I don't remember the tears stopping this night...

Holding my angel in my arms, the time seemed to go so quick...  before I knew it, it was time to lay Jack back in his Moses Basket to prepare ourselves for what lay ahead...

I tenderly wrapped Jack's shawl back round him and laid him back in his little bed with all his beautiful gifts...

He looked so peaceful...

I took this photograph that night, I just wanted as many photographs as possible...  These photos are so precious to us...

The very last photo we had taken was in our lounge a few hours later, holding Jack in our arms, just before leaving our house to go to the church for Jack's Service...

This 'last' whole evening that we spent with Jack will stay with us forever and ever...

We will never forget holding our baby in our arms, taking in every last little detail of his beautiful face and body, being able to hold him against us, and maybe, just for a split second ~ thinking he was 'really still here'...

My heart aches for him, he is constantly in my mind, not a day goes by, not an hour passes that he is not 'with us'...

We love and miss him so dearly ~ 'it hurts'...

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