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'jack's farewell' These next pages are dedicated to 'Our Sweet Angels Funeral Service' ~ the day we had to say 'Farewell'... I have continued this from the link Our Last Night ~ this is the next part of our story after we had spent the whole previous evening with our Jack at home...
DECEMBER 5TH 2000 It was around 9.45 am when I carried Jack downstairs ~ this was to be the last time we did this... Every time we did something this morning, I remember saying... "this is the last time we are going to be able to do this with Our Jack" ~ I couldn't make myself believe that soon we would not be able to hold our baby in our arms anymore, until we all meet in Heaven that is... Around 10.15 am people started knocking and flowers started arriving... I feel this is when it really started to sink in that 'our time with our precious Angel was running out'...
Andrew and I sat quietly in our lounge with our Jack taking in every last little detail of him to remember in our hearts forever... Sophie arrived with my mum and our Godmother and Andrew's cousin Perry came in to take the last photograph of us all together... I remember hearing a familiar voice from in the hallway... People didn't disturb us in the lounge whilst we were spending our last few minutes with Jack, yet I called this voice to come... It was a dear friend of mine, Amanda, she had never met Jack... now she could... She came in, tears falling and spent some precious time with us before we had to leave... She said how beautiful Jack was... Then John our funeral director arrived... Uh~oh, was this when I was to run off with our baby boy and hide from the world so no-one could find us or find the strength to go through with the arrangements and plans that we had so painstakingly arranged months ago... This is when I really feel I started to lose my grip... I honestly didn't know how I was going to get through this day or the rest of my life...
Our family came in one by one to say their goodbyes to Jack and slowly left the house to go to their cars for the short drive to the church... Andrew hugged and held close to us our precious baby son... I placed Jack in his Moses Basket, wrapped him up snuggly and carried him out to our waiting car... We couldn't believe that this would be the last time we carried our baby from our house...
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